What I’ve Been Up to – Birthday, Stress, Change and Learning German!

Hi everyone, sorry my posts have been a little sparadic recently, I can explain!

These last few weeks have not been the greatest, I was extremely stressed a few weeks ago resulting in me not eating, not sleeping and therefore doing worse in my assesments than I probably could’ve, causing even more stress. I’m on the path back to where I was but unexplained sadness still takes away from my mood (sad songs playlist on repeat, haha!)

My semester properly finished on Friday (although we still have one more week), this means I will have new teachers and classes for next semester. If you know me well, you’d know I hate change. I’d prefer to do the same classes with the same teachers and same people every day for the rest of my life then ever have to change. 
I only want to post things I’m proud of, and I didn’t feel I was in the state to do that for the past few weeks. 

“Good things are happening, even if they hurt.” 

Anyway, on Tuesday, it was my birthday, didn’t do anything too special but had a good day, filled with chocolate, school and phone calls from family. 
Now, it’s the weekend. Lately I’ve been so bored on the weekends, I have nothing to do, I occasionally go out with friends but more often then not, I’m at home. I have a three week school break starting next week, if I can barely survive 2 days how will I get through 3 weeks?

About 10 weeks ago I decided to pick up German on the app ‘DuoLingo’ (HIGHLY recommended!) I believe I’m currently 15% fluent, and it heals my boredom problem sometimes haha! It made me realise how much I love learning. I only really know basic sentences which will probably never come up in a conversation but we’re getting there! Haha. Ich bin eine frau und du bist ein mann, ich habe kein ahnung…!

Well that’s about it, I hope you guy’s enjoyed this chatty post and I’ll hopefully see all your beautiful faces next week!
Comment below what you’ve been up to! When’s your birthday? Do you know any other languages?
Thankyou so so much for reading! ♡ 
Shannon x

Stress and Perfectionist-ism.

Stress. 

Only one word, with many meanings, but often holding a lot of impact.

I’ve been stressed recently, I have a lot of tests and assignments within such a short period, and it’s making life quite difficult lately. My life definitely isn’t hard – not at all! I am thankful to be attending a great school, being taught by incredible teachers, surrounded by great people and amazing family, I live in a nice house with my family in a beautiful area, with so many priveleges that I’m forever grateful for. But sometimes – it all gets too much.

Something I struggle with a lot is my perfectionist-ism. I care so much that I no longer care at all. I want good grades but sometimes it’s easier to not try at all, instead of trying my hardest. So that’s exactly what I do, perform badly, making myself worried but I cover it with an “I don’t care” attitude. 

I crave success, happiness, contentness and strong relationships with others. But putting in effort is hard for me. I’m not lazy, I’m just scared of failure. I’ve come to terms with it but I’m still on a very long road to improvement. 

I don’t know why I’m posting this. I just need to talk about it. Maybe it will help some of you (??) But I’m sorry for rambling.

I know these blog posts aren’t everyones cup of tea. But I needed to let it out. If you are feeling like this or are being impacted by stress at all, let me know below and we can have a chat. I love talking with you all.

I would also like to acknowledge and pay my respects to Manchester. Such a horrible situation, I won’t go into detail but I’ve been thinking of the victims everyday, absolutely heartbreaking!

Thanks for reading!

Have you been through stressful times? How did you deal with it?

Shannon x